Alright. Ok. This turmoil in my life will pass. It's just a matter of time. Sometimes I wish I could fast forward time (just like Click!) but, you would also miss all the good things in life. So... focus on other things! Positive things! That's my strategy. Today I will go the the courthouse and submit the boy's application for their passport book. I've already submitted mine, so that is off my to do list. I just need Kristian's now, but I need a notarized letter from her father, augh! (he should be willing to cooperate, just to make her happy). I am really worried that we will not get their passports on time, but I'm not in the panic stage yet! Plus, it takes only 3 weeks now, so we should be safe (right?). Let's hope so.

Why do people insist in making my life miserable? I'm just so sick and tired of it. I will not go through another 2008! I refuse! I'm tired of putting up with all this political b.s. at work. I have to hold on to this stupid job until after my trip, I won't be able to take off if I get a new job right now. I'm just a nobody, a peon, trying to do the best that she can so, what's the point? But, right now as my friend says "a job is better than no job right now".

For some reason, after a long time, I have felt ALIVE again (maybe the weather? idk)! Almost like myself again. I feel more productive, and I'm finding meaning in a lot of things. I just need a better job now! I will start to work on that after my trip (really, I will). My children are learning to cope without their father at home. It's been about a month now. Luis is taking it the hardest (he's a Lalo chiquito).